A Year Ago Yesterday

This was in my inbox from BabyCenter:

And a happy birthday to your baby! Can you believe a whole year has gone by since you gave birth? A lot has happened, in his life and yours. If only you had a dollar for every dirty diaper, every green-bean-stained shirt, and every precious baby smile, you'd have a big fat college fund by now! Your little guy's probably toddling around now, or on the verge of that crucial physical milestone. The next step is full-blown walking, talking, curious toddlerhood. You'll love seeing his growing sociability and vocabulary — but prepare yourself, those first temper tantrums go hand-in-hand with his budding independence.

Too bad they don't know that Samantha's a GIRL!

In The Fog

Eye lids: heavy.
Stomach: churning.
Head: Throbbing.
Asshole: Getting the workout of it's life.

Ah, the beauties of chemotherapy. There's no wrong way to suffer.

If We Were Paper Dolls

Ever been to this site before? If so, you can make your own paper dolls! Seriously. Heh.... Heh.... Heh...... And I made some of the many people in my life. Shall I flash them off? I think I shall!


This is me. Walking the dog. Taking care of Samantha. I don't have a chest like that, I do wear a towel over my bald head. It's a fashion thing. After making me, I decided to work on James:


::Laughs:: See that? He usually runs around here stark naked, but there was no dick props on Stor, so I decided to Jade-it-up, and put the heart there. ::chuckles::


So I made him some clothes.


I even made Jade. See? She loves Nicole!

Last but not least, I had to make the other Billy. I tried to make him as realistic as possible, but there was no high heels there. Oh well:


::LAUGHS::

That's enough for me. I need to get my ass to bed. I have a bad day coming up tomorrow.

No Stars In The Sky

There was no clouds in the sky when the sun set today, but there were no stars in the sky tonight. It's like Heaven turned out it's lights. That sounds sappy, I know, but to me, it seemed the way that things were. Things are getting worse for me, and it's not the up coming chemo rounds, either. It's not missing Samantha's first birthday. It's something else. Something bigger. Something that I don't want to publish on the internet. I can't publish it. I was hurt when Jade told the world that I was sick, but now? Now that the roles have reversed? I don't feel that it's my place to publish anything like that.

Is Nothing Sacred Anymore?

I was out walking my dog, when Jade called me on my cell phone and told me to come home. Immediately. She was panicking. When I got home, Jade was sitting at the kitchen table in tears. I asked her what was wrong, and she said that one of the stalkers made good on one of their threats. What? Are we still talking about that shit? Didn't it die with the 80s? I think everyone should just ignore the petty assholes, and they'll go away.

I was looking at my refferer logs... Anyone care to explain: billy and icky - one summer. What is that all about? Who's icky? Is that someone that I'm supposed to know? The things people will search for online... ::shakes head sadly::

One thing that I wish that I could have back in my life. One person. Marcy. I don't know where she's gone to. I don't even know if she's still alive. I know that if she is dead, she didn't take her own life. That's bullshit. It's also weird that since she's been gone, Jana hasn't appeared online. Oh well. So what if she made up someone? I've done that in the past. It's no big deal. I guess that I should have told her that when I had the chance. I'm going to bed.