Wundering

I can't help but sit here and wonder what cruel thing Christina, a friend of mine, is going to say about Jade in her weblog. Jade's not ugly, even if all her hair has fallen out and all, but she's not the prettiest girl in the world either. But that's never stopped Christina. She thinks that it's funny, that people make web sites for their dead children, people with cancer, and people who believe in God. Worse, she puts them on her site. That scares me. Jade doesn't deserve to be tortured. None of us do.

I guess why I'm really rambling on about Christina is because of Marcy. She took off sometime about 24 hours ago. I spent all day today trying to track her down. I called her parents, Cedric, her grandmother, Tabby her cousin, Lindsay, and some other people from school that she was friends with. No luck. No one had even known that she was gone until I called them and asked if she was there with them. Running away or off is not uncommon with Marcy. Back in November, when she found out that she was pregnant with Jana, she ran away from home because she didn't know how her mom would react. That worked out ok. She got to keep the baby and gained the most-wanted-by-women-all-over man in the world as her husband (me genius). But I don't know why or where she could have gone to now. Was it because of me? Because I had a relapse Thursday afternoon? I can't help that. Cedric said that I'd probably have them ten years from now. Something that I am not looking forward to. If Marcy comes home, I'll try my hardest to hide these damned relapses. I promise. I miss her.

George's Miracle

When Jade left to go in for her chemotherapy treatment, she left seeing me changing Nicole. That's exactly what she came home to. Somehow, probably with his high-priced lawyers, George got all the babies back. And Erik...

No, he didn't raise the dead. Erik wasn't killed in that car accident after all, just taken to a different hospital. But things here seem to be going back to normal, all except for Jade. She was really hit hard with that Taxol. I can understand that. It happened to me all the time when I was first home. I hope that she gets better in time for the Horse Walk two weeks from tomorrow.

Oh, and email this thief! They stole my design, ideas and everything!

Kaepora And Gaebora

James called a meeting today. Apparently Jana's been on crack or something because he said that she was unusually happy, high acting if you will, and there's been some talk that this might not be the real Jana. She mentioned that she stayed on all day yesterday and none of us came on. Welcome to what we went through for several, oh, uh.... weeks, Jana. Doesn't feel too good, now does it? Wondering why people are ignoring you.... Well, not you know what Jade went through. The only difference was that Jade cared enough to call you and find out what was wrong. It's sad that you don't have that same caring towards Jade.

This isn't going to be an entry solely devoted to some weird hate message to Jana, because that's not who I am, really. I was taught to love other people, dispite how much they annoy you, confuse you, but not hurt. I'm not into that. I just think that it's really sad that I have an ill sister who can't get away from it, and no one cares.

Ill

I feel ill. I may or may not write again in the morning. All what I want is Jana back.

Don't Know What To Say

I know that I never really wanted Marcy to have Jana. Selfish? Yes. I can't help that. Sometimes I wished that Jana wasn't even here. I can't begin to count all the times that I wished that. Today, I got that wish. The State of Oklahoma took her away today because of the crap that Sean was telling about Jade. We all thought it was someone else, but now that seems stupid when we actually stopped to think about it: DHS knew things that Jana and Marcy couldn't possibly know, because they happened in Chicago, before we ever met Jana or Marcy. Yes, I told that stuff to Sean. I didn't think anything of it, and he's supposed to be my friend. He wasn't supposed to repeat it to anyone. The other thing that finally tipped me off was the photo shopped pictures of Jade. Jana says that she can't do anything with computers right? Debbie said that too, but Jana doesn't have a mysterious daughter who has a lot of web sites up either. Whoever photoshopped those pictures of Jade knew what they were doing. And they did a lot of it by hand, something that you'd have to be a pretty good artist to do.

This whole thing, I don't know. It's........... sad.

Tigger By The Tail

Why do people want to know where our weblogs are? Why? All what I've heard for the past month is, "Why do you have weblogs? You should cancel them like I did – the big-quitter Jana– dispite how much time and effort you put into the animations and learning HTML." Wah. Wah. Wah. Jana should know better. We aren't like her. I'm kinda glad about that, but in a way, I'm kinda sad about it too. I don't know why, I just am.

On a better subject, Dave's decided to make a web site that celebrates Jade. That's going to be fun, although, I don't know what I can do to contribute to it, or Dave for that matter because he's going to use Jade's own art on the page. It's going to be about the galaxy, from what I've heard because Jade loves the stars so much. And Jana thinks that Dave's an asshole!

Bad Mood: Getting Better

I really am feeling a little better. Honestly. Maybe it because of this. *Laughs* I kill me.