The Good, The Bad, And The Worried

I still feel bad about all the trouble that I've caused Jade because I posted here that she was a lesbian. Hey, it was a thought. One that I probably should have kept to myself. But I think that I'm being punished accordingly though. I hate to see Jade so uptight over Dave though. I wish I could fast-forward to Thursday and see what's going to happen and then tell her that it's going to be okay. I used to do that with movies and stuff. Fast-forward them ahead and when she was scared because the plots were sad or something, I could tell her that it was going to be okay. I can't do that with real-life, and that makes me madder than when I felt when I got my last blood test back. Jade's told me over and over again that she doesn't know what she's going to do when Dave's gone. Whoa. Wait a minute. When he's gone? She already knows that he's going to die or something?? That's really scary.

At least Jade let me move into this nice house that she owns. I don't miss Marcy that much... She needs a good ass kicking if you ask me. Kidding!! I wish that for this week coming up, that people could just get along. That would be nice for a change, don't you think? I think I have a solution, but since I don't want to have to eat my words here again, I'll secretly tell Jana what my solution is, and then see if she'll try it. If I'm right, what's going to happen? Jana will be feeding me grapes while I lie in a tropical paradise for the rest of eternity!!!

Yesterday's Post

Yesterday when I posted that I thought that Jade was a lesbian, that was just that. I think she is. The signs all point to "lesbian", but she's not a dyke (butch lesbian). She has never said this to me. Tuesday night at the fair, Carter Bishop's shirt flew up over his head, and he flashed us with some rather large boobies. He has a "flat crotch". Much like Lindsay Dozier probably has. The difference? Carter has a unisex name. Carter doesn't talk either. But you know what? This is no one's business. I know now that Jade's never coming home because of my actions yesterday, and I only wrote that because I was bored. Not because I honestly believe that it happened. I'm sorry that I wrote it.

Not So Sure

My dad always hated me because he suspected that I was the "queer" of this next generation of O'Dowds, and totally ruling out Jesse, Andy, Ricky Jr., Katy, Amy, Gary, BJ, Donna, and the rest of my cousins, and................Jade? Now, upon reading Jade's weblog, what does she always write that she loves sexuallly? Oral sex. She can't get off on intercourse alone, and granted, a lot of girls can't especially when their partners are as ugly as Dave, or their breath stinks as bad as James's. But Jade's complaint is that even with a lover as good as Billy C, she can't get there. Why not? He's the next-to-the-oldest lover that she's had. I think that Hugh was the oldest at 51 in 1995. But she didn't click that well with him either!! Is there something wrong with all the men that Jade's slept with? Has she some how picked only duds in her 9 years as a sexually active girl? That can't be it. That isn't possible.... Is it? Well, it is, if you pick the wrong gender of lovers. It wasn't until my "aunt" George pointed that out to me that it dawned on me. Jade's a lesbian. And she probably doesn't even know that she is. But.... she's dating Carter Bishop! They've had sex! Look closely at this picture of Carter Bishop:

That is a girl. Shocked? Not as much as I was when I found out that there are both kinds of homosexuals on both sides of the family. On my dad's side there are men that become women before their 30th birthdays, and on my mom's side? Lesbians. Our mom is a lesbian. She only got married to hide her sexuality. Is that why Jade got married? Does she know that she's a lesbian? She sure never mentions her kids online or on the phone or at all. No maternial instincts. She hates being pregnant, and sees intercourse as a chore, and not something pleasurable unless it's oral sex (on her). She doesn't mind household chores, such as cleaning and sewing up clothes that have torn up, but she doesn't like taking care of the babies that she put on this Earth. Upon looking through her medical records, Marcus was concieved through a homosexual mating service, so she might have known that she was a lesbian as early as when she was 17 years old and met Bryan. Okay, so why don't I talk about my daughter? Well, because she just eats and sleeps. I don't need a paternity test to know that she's mine!!! =)

I don't love my sister any less for being gay, nor do I think that she's any less of a mother/woman/human being for it. I am shocked, though, that I didn't see the signs when she was younger and always wanted shorter hair styles, and she almost always wore denium shorts under her school uniform skirts and would run to the girls' room the minute school was over for the day and yank the skirt and blouse off. Actually, I've never seen Jade in a skirt willingly, and in her wedding pictures, and at the wedding itself, she looked pretty miserable in that dress. No wonder she couldn't wait to get it off!! All in all, I think that it's a little bit of an insult that George, someone who's only known Jade for a short time recently, would see things that people who've known her all her life (pratically), wouldn't see. That's all for me. I think I need a drink too!!

The Gift Of Being Gifted

On September 1, 2001, my IQ was tested by OSU. I got the results back today. 210. Wow. If 144-160 is gifted, does this make me a genius? Wait, why am I asking that? OF COURSE IT DOES!! But I won't brag or gloat. (I'd like to thank my extremely large brain on my genetics, and my state acredited highschool. That is all.) Today's the first day in a long time that I've felt well enough to get out of bed and actually do something. And do something I did. I looked up Jade's FPT source today, and found a horrible picture of her new boyfriend... GOD, JADE! You sure as hell lowered your standards, don't you think?

Actually, I feel like running around happy today. That's how much better I feel. But it's only a pause in the illness. I'll probably be dead come this time tomorrow.