A Now A Few Words From The Founder....

I am never eating green ketchup again. Well, at least not while I'm sick. I am tired. This is my post for the day. I'll tell you what happened today in the morning.

Only Love Can Win

People that have known me for a long time know that I've done some really retarded things. Drinking that cancer-causing toxic waste is just one of a million things that I've done in my life that sticks out more than the others. But that doesn't mean that there aren't more, because there are.

One of the many things that I regret is making an enemy with Jana before I got to know her. I believed that she was one of..... them. Who are them?? They're people who preach the Bible their own way, saying that it's wrong to do anything but live the Amish-Nun life. No matter what you say or do, in their eyes it's wrong. It always will be. I was told this by three different people who I won't name here, but Jana knows them all. What James did, stealing email, lying, paying Lauren off, that was all wrong. But if Jana gets mad about it, he won't know why she's mad. He won't know what he's done to make her mad. He thinks he did the right thing, and it just went bad. Kind of like buying someone flowers and it turns out that they're allergic to them. But this is major. It's a federal offense. I won't judge Jana for what she does to James, but I hope that she knows that she is dealing with a disabled person. A person that doesn't realize what a mistake he's made.

I was talking with Sean today about all of this. He was shocked to find out that I hadn't stopped the hoax from emerging. "Billy why didn't you tell Jana to go to hell? She deserved it, she didn't handle things the right way, but you never gave up on her." Nope, I never did. She just didn't know me as well. I don't hate Jana. I feel sorry for her, because she's the victim here, just like if she'd been run over by a truck or something. She formed most of her opinions on news relayed to her through Marcy. And well, I don't think I need to imagine all that she came up with. I don't do street drugs. I do drink, and when I do, yeah, it's pretty bad. I fight for the people that I love. I take beatings for them. I've fought for Jana for the past three months on MetaFilter. Got them to look for Robin and Lindsay's email and other things on the web. I tried to help Jana, but these things take time. Lindsay and Robin aren't as profiled as Jade is on the web, and it's taking some time. So there was no way that I could help with over-night findings. Be patient, okay, Jana? We're getting some things, but I don't want you to get your hopes up over nothing.

I know that one of two things will happen when Jana reads this. Either her jaw will hit the floor, or she won't believe a word of it. Either way, I am happy that I could tell this, because I know that I feel this way. I helped Jana. Someone who obviously hated me for a long time, and feared me for no reason. Kind of like what Cedric did for me with this bone marrow.

I'm satisfied knowing that.

Am I The Only One?

Yup, Dave's right. I know that he wasn't trying to start a pig-pile on James, but this is weird. James stole that email out of Jana's box, altered it, and sent it to me? Why? Was he afraid that I was going to tell on him? I wasn't, but I should now. I don't like to be tricked. I'm here in a hospital room, under observations, sick, and sleepy. I don't need this right now. Am I the only one in this circle of friends that wants this to end? I can't be. However, James is not what he appears. Jana can't know this because she's never around him. Well, not physically.

The Tamara update is in tact. So far, Bonnie's been keeping track of Tamara. Keeping updated pictures on her blog, the one that only she and Jade know about. Well, I think I'll link it on the message board. If James hasn't dropped that yet.

Again???

I hope that yesterday's entry didn't disqualify me for The Memember of the Month thing, because I wasn't being mean to Cedric. I just really think that this bone marrow was toxic, that's all.

Well, well, well, Jana's feeling the cold, rash voice of Marcy. What took you so long, Jana? Did you think that Jade was lying to you all those times? She wasn't. There are times when I know that Jade was telling you the truth, and yet you refused not to believe her. You believed Marcy.

Why do I write these messages to Jana? It's not like she's going to answer them. I'm sick again... Better sign off.

Goddamned You, Cedric!!!!

I feel like shit. I think that Cedric's bone marrow was poisoned. The bastard. First he takes my wife and then kills me with toxic bone marrow. I think I'll beat him to death when I get out of here!!!!

I think I'm going to go puke now. I only posted today because I didn't want to be disqualified for Member of the Month.

Live

I'm gonna live.

I'm gonna love.

But I'm not gonna take that long, hard road out of Hell. I like Hell. I think I'll take it over. Watch out Satan!! Billy's alive and well!!

I'd blog more, but I'm tired. Yeah, I've been blessed to get that bone marrow transplant.

I Choose

Okay, I've done it now. Let's see, where do I begin? How about where I was getting those IMs from Jana. The really mean, nasty IMs. She called me names. She insulted me. She called me a fake. Now, naturally, this pissed me off. Would it not you? So I really thought that she was sending these. Little did I know that it was her step-daughter on AIM. See, I have AOL 5.0. I don't get to see if someone is on AOL or AIM like Jade does. Jade was almost never manipulated by Lindsay on AIM, because why would Jana need to use AIM with her own screen name when her only internet service is AOL? I never thought of this, because, well, I don't have AOL 6.0 that lets you see if someone's on AOL or AIM. So I go and cancelled Jana's AIM service. Lindsay had changed the password to: BITCH. Nice girl huh? Anyway, while I'm in Jana's screen name, I take the time to look through her buddy list. It was sad. She has me, James, Jade, Marcy, Cedric [vomits], and Dave on her buddy list. I noticed that she didn't have Kathy Action's screen name on there. Wonder why? I figured with as nice a person as Jana is, she'd have a hundred people on her buddy list. Not so. So, from now on, I will be nice to Jana. I am choosing to be nice to her. No one's twisted my arm to do this. I know how it feels to be alone.

Green With Envy

Wonders never cease, and stupid people never cease to amaze me. Jana actually thinks that James is jealous of....? Do I dare say? Better not. I'd better erase this whole entry, because I might be jealous too!! Yeah, this is a sure sign! Jealousy. Worthy of Webster's. Man, if Jana gets any dumber, we might have to send her back to kindergarden to learn how to interact with normal people. No one is jealous of her daughters. James was trying to save her feelings. But she didn't take it like that. Speaking of James, I heard that his mother's coming home today from seven l*o*n*g months in Park Side. Makes me wonder if he'll ever talk to Jana again? Why would he? He's already called and he was happy.

Happy? Marcy's not too happy. Someone put a bug in her ear that Jade went off and had sex with Cedric today. Fight! Figh! Fight! Jerry! Jerry! Jerry!